07 April 2009

Five Things I've Learned In My First Ten Weeks As A Mother

On Thursday, Gretchen will be ten weeks old & already I have learned so much. Some things were expected, some came as a surprise & for all of them I am grateful.

01. I have learned how to breastfeed successfully! This makes me so incredibly happy, especially since we had difficulties with it at the beginning. Thanks to the support & advice of friends & medical professionals I was able to persist! I can now say that I absolutely love breastfeeding & it makes me feel very fourtunate & fabulous. I will continue breastfeeding as long as I possibly can (which means pumping a lot when/if I end up working again). I feel such a special bond from breastfeeding & I'm really proud of myself for sticking out the rough patches.

02. I've learned the art of babywearing. I absolutely love wearing my daughter. We have three different types of carriers -- the CuddlyWrap, a Baby Bjorn & a Heart to Heart sling -- all great for different reasons. My favourite for the time being is the Cuddly. I love having her so close & snuggled to my heart -- it's also fantastic for helping her fall asleep.

03. I have learned what it feels like to worry about someone so tiny & so beautiful that your heart can hardly handle it. When my daughter wasn't gaining weight, or when she had a fever last week, my insides hurt. However, as one of my readers mentioned, these are the things that make you stronger. Thankfully in both of these situations I also got to feel so happy when she was finally growing & gaining weight and of her recovering from her fever & smiling at me once again. These are the moments that recharge your soul & make you feel like a wonderful parent.

04. I have learned that I love cosleeping. Going to sleep beside my gorgeous little girl & waking up to that smiling face warms my heart to the core. Ryan & I talk to her when she wakes up & we get to see the first smiles of the day -- even more exhilarating than that first cup of coffee in the morning. Cosleeping also makes those night feedings so much easier. Roll, latch, nurse, sleep! I almost never have to get out of bed at night anymore & that makes for a fairly well slept mama (and in these first months, sleep is aking to sanity).

05. I have learned that no matter how much love I thought I had to give, the moment I saw my daughter for the very first time, I had more. So much more than I could have conceived. So much more than could have been described to me. She is the best thing that has ever happened to both Ryan & myself. I still feel like I'm bursting with love each time I look at her & since I spend about 20 hours a day doing just that, I'm sure you can begin to imagine the workout my heart is getting. My heart has never felt stronger.

I know that I have learned a ton of other things in these first ten weeks, but most importantly I have learned that I absolutely adore being a mother. I always thought that I would & now that I'm experiencing it -- It's amazing.

Simply amazing.

13 comments:

Pappnase said...

Thanks for sharing this.

Your words are so wonderful and touching and makes me even want more to be a mother soon.

I hope next year at this time, I can say these words about my daughter or son.

thank you


Tina

http://www.eve80.wordpress.com

Desiree Fawn said...

I hope you can too -- best wishes!

PhD in said...

What a beautiful post! Thank you for sharing your thoughts on your baby's first few months.

Deanna said...

the first thing i learned as a mother was that i thought my life began when i met my husband, but actually our life together didn't begin until our son was born.

Desiree Fawn said...

thank you for reading!

and deanna -- I think that's so beautiful!

garconniere said...

awww this was so wonderful to read! especially the cosleeping part. awwwwwww. i still can't believe i haven't met her.

Desiree Fawn said...

oh soon! I hope you can meet her soon!

Elaine said...

I always enjoy your posts, especially this one! I love that you take the time to reflect on these firsts, capture all these special moments for your daughter, and share them with us!

Desiree Fawn said...

It's my pleasure, Elaine! I know I'll be so grateful to be able to look back at posts like this one and see how I was feeling during these precious early weeks.
Thank you for reading <3

Scary Mommy said...

I know it's old, but I just read this post and loved it. The first ten weeks are so exhausting but amazing all at once.

Desiree Fawn said...

Awe, thanks!
It's amazing how fast it all goes & there is just so much to take in ^_^

Eclectic Mama said...

So touching.

#5 really rings true to me. It amazes me how much my heart can expand to meet the needs of my children. Even when I doubt everything else about the world, the one thing I know for certain is my love for my kids. Love is truly one of the few things that grows faster, the more you give away. I'm not sure I really *knew* that until I had kids.

Desiree Fawn said...

So true, I find it incredible EVERY single day!

Thank you so much for visiting.