26 July 2009
Last night Gretchen stayed home with daddy so I could go out and celebrate a friend's birthday. It was the second night I've been out without them since she was born and, amazingly enough, two of my friends who are mamas were also able to get out sans children. It was quite the sight for all three of us to be away while the little one's were with their daddies.
I stayed out for a few hours, and came home to a sound asleep babe. Ryan did a fabulous job. My little girl had been asleep for a couple hours and he didn't have a problem getting her to go to bed.
Balance has always been the attachment parenting principle that I've struggled the most with. Gretchen still wants to breastfeed every hour or two, so sometimes it's hard to feel as though she can get along without me. Though I'm still not eager to leave her with anyone, I'm starting to feel more comfortable with the idea.
For example: as you all know, we are moving on Tuesday. My close friend (whose wedding I'm in next month) has volunteered to take Gretchen for the morning so that I don't have to worry about her while we pack up the UHaul. She will be the first person (other than the gym daycare provider) to watch Gretchen who isn't related: however, she's in my chosen family and I trust her wholeheartedly.
It's little steps like this that I know will create a healthy balance in my parenting style.
Little by little.
I am doing better with leaving her, but I'm always so happy to see her when I return -- and I love that feeling of seeing her little face light up when she sees me.
There is nothing like that.